I love you to the moon and back, And then way far beyond; Without you here to give me life, My heart does not go on.
For you, my child, were life to me, The song within my soul; Without you I am empty, A half that once was whole.
No matter where you are, my child, Just know you'll always be; As close as my next heartbeat, For your heart resides in me.
I'll always be your Mother, You'll always be my child; For in my heart, I'll keep your love, And we'll never say goodbye.
I opened up a box one day What treasures did I find! Letters and some photographs Of days we left behind
I drifted back to yesterday The thought was oh, so clear For just a moment, anyway It felt like you were here
I smile when I think of you Sometimes I cry so much I'm all alone without you now I crave to feel your touch
But God had other plans for you An Angel he did find So now my box of memories Is all that's left behind
As The Sun Came Up This Morning I Watched You There Below Your Hearts Seemed Oh So Heavy But There’s Something You Should Know
I’m Not Gone So Don’t Worry I’m Just A Step Ahead And I’m With You Every Single Day As You Rise Up From Your Bed
I Am The Sun That Warms You I Am The Moon’s Soft Glow I Am The Stars That Twinkle And Light Your Path Below
So When At Times You Miss Me Just Look For Me I’m There For You Cannot Hide My Spirit It Is With You Everywhere.
Dear God xx
have u got time to talk to me i hope u understand i need to know why laura was part of your big plan
why did she have to leave us lord where did my daughter go she needs to be with us lord the ones who love her so
if heaven is like i imagine i know shed want to stay with streets of gold beneath her feet and angels all at play
with sunshine upon her lovely face gentle breezes through her hair we need her back where she should be to show her how we care
ill never be complete again for i am aching still theres nothing left my soul has gone i dont think i ever will
im clinging to my memories like ive never clung before she has gone across the river but i cant reach the shore.
and so dear lord im asking you please hear this mummys plea please keep her safe,take all her love and share it lord, with me please do not take my poems they were written for MY CHILD from MY HEARTXX
I am a royal princess In my castle in the sky I'm having so much fun up here, On my pink clouds way up high.
I wear a grand tiara with Jewels all around , And sometimes i remove it Just to wear my royal crown.
All girls are princess' be there can surely be only one real princess And that real one is me.
please do not take my poems they were written for MY CHILD from MY HEART XX
Do you know the phone number for Heaven? I want to make a call. Telephone directories ? oh yes i've tried them all.
I asked the local vicar, he talks to God, you see I thought he had a direct line but he was no help to me.
I tried the yellow pages but nothing seems to fit. I want to talk to Laura Jean, for just a little bit
I need to know if shes ok And if she made it there Oh please just keep on looking operator tell me where
ive searched the streets just looking ive looked the whole world through oh operator please place my call I don’t know what to do
Oh- Yes! Ive rang my local church They were helpful in my call But they couldn’t find the number Tacked upon their wall
Is the number listed operator Can you put me straight through? If I can hear her gentle voice She’ll tell me what to do
You say theres nothing listed oh please just look again im taking one day at a time but struggling with this pain
thank you operator for your time ill try just what you said before I go to sleep tonight ill kneel before my bed
ill put my hands together and pray to god above and ask him to give laura jean her families precious love
i feel her with me all the time but sad we had to part when heaven took my laura back it left my broken heart. please do not take my poems they were written for MY CHILD from MY HEARTXX
ill never let my laura go Even though she died She's with me every minute In the pain i feel inside
When that dreadful thing happened I thought i might forget Her voice, her shape, her smile, her words It hasnt happened yet
She's in my every waking thought In all the tears ive cried In every step throughout my life ill walk with her inside
So in this constant agony When it hurts to much to bear Its just her way of telling me That always she'll be there.
This site is created in the memory of our loved one, Laura Jean, our 10 year old angel, who collapsed and died while playing with friends. Laura had been allowed outside only briefly while her parents wrapped and hid her Christmas presents. Laura developed breathing difficulties and collapsed in a park close to her home in Halifax, West Yorkshire. The cause of her death is still a mystery. Her mother Sarah said, "When we arrived at the park, there where three paramedics trying to revive her. We just went to pieces and started screaming at them to wake her up." Sarah and Laura's father, Colin, have vowed to lay all of Laura's presents on her bed on Christmas Eve as usual so their "little princess" will know how much they loved her. "Christmas was her favorite time of year," said Sarah. She still believed in Santa. On her wish list this year were two dolls and world peace. We are just numb, we still haven't accepted that she is gone. She had been so excited about Christmas. We haven't turned the tree lights on since she died. On Christmas Eve we are going to lay all her presents on her bed so she can see them. Among the poignant momentoes Sarah has of her little girl is the Christmas card Laura made her. It read: "You brighten my gloomy days, when I see your smile, I smile too." Sarah said, "Everyone who met her, was touched by her. She always had a smile for everyone, even when she was a little girl." The whole family has been left stunned by Laura's sudden death and are struggling to come to terms with their loss. Colin said, "It's too quiet in the home now, Laura was always singing and so lively. We believe that when you are gone, you still see the last who were with you, and that was us." Laura's funeral will take place on the 23rd of December and a recording of her singing a carol will be played for the congregation. Colin explained, "Laura had just taken part in a Christmas concert. I had recorded her singing, Infant Holy, at home and we are having it played at the funeral. Wherever she goes there will be a light." Laura's brother Frank, 13, has also been deeply affected by his sister's unexpected death, but Colin said, "that he had been very brave throughout the tragedy. He has been suffering too, but he had been looking after all of us." Colin and Sarah had only allowed their daughter to play outside in order to catch up on gift wrapping. Sarah also had wanted to hide one of the dolls that Laura had been desperate for at a neigbours house. Laura and a small number of friends had been playing at Ackroyd Park, when she began to complain about feeling unwell. She started to struggle for breath and collapsed shortly afterwards. One of her brother's friends raced back to tell her parents what had happened. But despite paramedics arriving very quickly, there was nothing they could do to revive her. They had lost their "little princess."
We wish you could come back again just for a little while, To see your loving face again, to see your pretty smile.
To hold you in our arms again, to sit and stroke your hair, To creep in to your room at night and see you sleeping there.
To walk to school together, strolling hand in hand, Why did you have to go my love, please help us understand.
I know what you are thinking. That you have been set free, But my daily life is planned for four, I cant get used to three.
We miss you Princess Laura, The pain is still so raw. We still sit and wait for you, To come walking through the door.
Im asking God for just one thing and will never ask again, To let our Laura come back home and stop this awful pain.
Please hear our cries and plea's Dear Lord, Our worlds' an empty place. We need to see her smile again, We need to kiss her face.
The pain we are suffering can only be set free, The day you hug our Laura Jean and send her back to me. We will always love you princess, love Mummy and Daddy xxx written By sarah porter Lauras mummy
There's a beautiful light up in heaven and the colours so bright that it glows It appeared when our princess left us and it follows where ever she go's
The angels all bowed down before her as they welcomed the princess back home They said I know that your parents are hurting but you were only given on loan
They was singing and dancing before her and one placed a crown on her head The others laid flowers before her by God's hand through the gates she was led
The angel of life stood before her and told of her wonderful birth I remember that day in September the day you was blessed down on earth
We watched as you grew from a baby to a beautiful precious young girl How you loved all your friends and your family how you loved being a part of the world
We will comfort your family from heaven we will show them your'e doing just fine and when they need to feel you around them from heaven you can send them a sign
So dont worry about all your loved ones Gods catching their tears as they flow You're happy and safe here in heaven and they will follow wherever you go
Written by Sarah, Lauras Mummyxxx
It must be very difficult To be a man in grief, Since "men don't cry" and "men are strong" No tears can bring relief.
It must be very difficult To stand up to the test, And field the calls and visitors So she can get some rest.
They always ask if she's all right And what she's going through. But seldom do they take his hand, "My friend, but how are you?"
He hears her crying in the night And thinks his heart will break. He dries her tears and comforts her, But "stays strong" for her sake.
It must be very difficult To start each day anew. And try to be so very brave He lost his baby too.
One night I cried to Jesus as I sat beneath the tree, I looked into the open sky and hoped he'd answer me.
I'm lost, dear Lord, I've traveled far but I still seem to roam, Please light the way and lead me, Lord; I need to get back home.
I told him of my burdens and of the sadness in my heart, That from his gracious love I'd never felt so apart.
Why did you take my child, Lord? I cannot understand! I'll never see her face again or hold her little hand I'm angry, Lord, I'm missing her I'm drowning in my sorrow, Please help to heal my yesterday and face each new tomorrow.
It was then I heard her gentle voice and felt her presence near, How I wanted to hold her as I cried another tear. she said, "Mummy, I'm an angel now, my spirit will be free, I'm an angel now in Heaven so please don't cry for me.
I was chosen by our Lord above and now I'm in his care, When you need me, look inside your heart, I promise to be there.
No one can ever take away our bond with one another, For I'll always be your precious child as you will always be my mother.
So if you cannot find your way or the road to home seems far, Just look up to the heavens and I'll be your guiding star."
she said, "Mummy, I'm an angel now, my spirit will be free, I'm an angel now in heaven -- no need to cry for me
Forever we will miss you, Forever we will cry, Why did you have to leave this earth And gain your wings to fly?
You know we loved you dearly, More than anyone could know, Why did you have to leave so soon Why did you have to go?
Our hearts down here are broken, And it can never mend, Forever we protected you, Until the very end.
We pray to God for answers, We talk to him each day, We hope that you can hear us Lord As on bended knees we pray.
Take good care of our child up there, She was much wanted here, Wrap your arms around her please And tell her we still care,
Let her know we love her so And will forever more. Keep her protected, safe and warm And wrapped in love so pure.
MISSING YOU Last night I saw a vision it was clear as it could be it filled my room with joy cause you were there with me.
I realised come morning that the vision wasn't there I ached to have you near me why is it so unfair?
Then it struck me the vision was oh so very real, and I knew there was a purpose which now I will reveal.
The truth is you are with me whether sleeping or awake, my thoughts reveal your presence with every breath I take
and so my love I tell you even though we are apart, day or night awake or in my dreams you live within my heart.
We love you so much Laura Jean xxx Mummy and Daddy xxxx
Whispers From Heaven They say that life is fleeting I know that this is true I left this world so quickly With no goodbye to you.
I know how much you miss me Your tears fall ever light The pillow where you lay your head Is wet with them at night.
I know your heart is hurting The words we left, unsaid I love yous' left unspoken Are spinning in your head.
For you see, while you were weeping On the day I passed away At the gravesite near the flowers Where my loved ones knelt to pray.
An angel came to see me She took me by the hand She led me to a kingdom In a very distant land.
As I look down from heaven And see you standing there Your heart so ever burdened With more grief than it can bear.
I long to bring you comfort I long to give you peace i want to say i love you Cause all your tears to cease.
The joy I’ve found in heaven Goes far beyond compare The love that’s so elusive Can be found here everywhere.
The light is softly shining There’s no storm clouds here or rain There’s no teardrops found in heaven There’s no suffering, there’s no pain.
You needn’t be so troubled Stay close to God and pray That someday we’ll be together One bright and sunny day.
So mummy, you shouldn’t question My daddy you need not cry I’ve gone to be with Jesus I really didn’t die.
Dear god, You sent a child to me To fill my life with joy, And only You knew which was best -- A little girl or boy. Somehow I took for granted, Lord, That we would have a lifetime, And I made so many future plans For that precious girl of mine. Enchanted by that Miracle, Caught up in each new day, I guess I didn't hear You, Lord, When You said, 'This one can't stay.' I trust You, Lord. Thy will; not mine, Yet I can not understand This sudden loss -- the emptiness -- Lord, guide me with your hand. I know my child's an angel now But my heart is aching so. I'm sorry I wasn't ready, Lord, To let my laura go. There wasn't time for one last hug; There was no final kiss. Oh God, it's all those special smiles That I already miss. So Lord, could you do just one thing For me especially? Please hold my angel close to You And say goodbye for me.
Do you know how much we miss you? Do you know how sad we are? Do you know we'll always love you? Do you see us from afar?
I know how much you miss me I know how sad you are I know you'll always love me I can see you from afar.
Can you hear us say we love you? Can you hear our mournful tears? Can you hear our hearts breaking? Can you help us ease our fears?
I can hear you say you love me I can hear your mournful tears I can hear your hearts are breaking And I can help you ease your fears.
When you feel a gentle breeze Across your cheek so free. Embrace the feeling that you get Because it's an angel kiss from me.
And when you hear the whistling wind Blowing the branches of a tree. Remember that now I have wings And I am flying free.
My Grief My grief is like a river, I have to let it flow, but I myself determine just where the banks will go.
Some days the current takes me in waves of guilt and pain, but there are always quiet pools where I can rest again.
I crash on rocks of anger; my faith seems faint indeed, but there are other swimmers who know that what I need
Are loving hands to hold me when the waters are too swift, and someone kind to listen when I just seem to drift.
Grief's river is a process of relinquishing the past. By swimming in hope's channels, I'll reach the shore at last.
In 1995, 6:26 p.m. the 25th of September, A princess was born, a day we'll treasure and remember. Born into a family who would love and cherish her so, They would give her kisses and watch her face glow!
This precious little girl adored Frankie, her brother And she loved the color pink more than any other. Sweet treats would make her tummy smile, Only making her sweeter, all the more worthwhile!
Boxing, hockey, tennis and netball, she played them all, As captain she named her team Laura's Latics in football. The princess loved school so much she never missed a day. She loved Jesus and her girls brigrade where she could pray.
She had to have Mommy cuddle and tickle her tummy each night And ran to give Daddy good morning kisses first with morning light. Laura loved her Nana Jean and visited her gravesite every week. Everytime she went she'd get an Angel kiss from Nana on the cheek.
She adored people and really loved helping them, Her beauty and her kindness made her shine like a gem! Laura sang all day and all night, everywhere, near and far, She really loved music and she was a singing star!
Movies, ice cream and popcorn, is something she loved to do, She enjoyed drawing and making cards for people too.
Princess Laura was outside playing, enjoying the Holiday Season When Jesus embraced her and took her for a greater reason. It was Christmas time, her favorite time of year, Her family mourned and wept tear after falling tear.
Where there was once light, there is dark they think, After all their Princess was gone as quick as a blink. Beautiful Angel Laura sends a message and all her love, They sprinkle down from her pink clouds above.
I continue to be the shining light in your heart, I will always and forever be there, my love didn't depart! Mommy, Daddy, Frankie, Do not be sad, for my life did not cease, Soon the world will hold hands because now I'm an Angel of Peace.
In a quiet little cemetary where the gentle breezes blow, lies my Laura, who I love dearly she died a while ago.
Her resting place I visit, place flowers there with care but no one knows my heartache when I turn and leave her there.
Though her smile is gone forever and her hands I cannot touch, still I have so many memories of the girl I love so much.
Her memory is my keepsake which I will never part, God has her in His keeping but I have her in my heart.
A rainbow appeared up in the sky for all the world to see, a rainbow placed up in the sky was put there just for me.
Mummy, I heard you prayin last night for a little peace of mind, so I sent you down this rainbow so you'd know it was a sign.
I asked God for some ladders so I could paint the sky, a paint brush and some coloured pots and this was his reply,
Go ahead my child, you paint the sky, if it makes your mummy smile, if it helps to ease her broken heart just for a little while.
What colours are you going to use, he asked my Laura Jean. I'm going to paint a rainbow from pink right through to green.
I'm going to paint the first arch red the love thats in my heart. Then sunshine yellow to shine on them when the morning starts.
The third one shall be pink of course just like my princess crown, and when my daddy see's it, he'll know I'm shining down.
Then green to spread across the sky for Frankie, my big bruv, he misses me so much you see and I can send him down my love.
Orange to light the sky up bright for all my friends to see, so they know that when I came here I brought their love with me.
Purple for the angels here and all their families too, so they can see the rainbow and won't feel down and blue.
Blue to finish my rainbow, paintings really fun. i just saw mummy smiling, my job up here is done.
written by sarah, lauras mummy xx
You've just walked on ahead of me And I've got to understand You must release the ones you love And let go of their hand
I try to cope the best I can But I'm missing you so much If I could only see you And feel your gentle touch
Yes, you've just walked on ahead of me Dont worry I'll be fine But now and then I swear I feel Your hand slip into mine
love mummy and daddyxxxxx
A light went out on Earth for me The day we said good bye And on that night a star was born The Brightest in the sky Reaching through the darkness With its rays of purest white Lighting up the heavens As it once lit up my life With beams of love to heal The broken hearts you left behind Your always in our memory Your star will always shine
Perhaps your days seem lonely The sky's no longer clear The sun somehow forgets to shine When you've lost someone so dear
There seems to be an empty space Which no one else can fill For nobody can take your place And no one ever will
And all the words of comfort Which friends and family send Are not enough to heal your pain And make the sadness end
But they can be a soothing balm To ease an aching heart And set your feet upon the path Where life again can start
Then suddenly you'll realise Your healing has begun And then, behind those clouds of grey Once more you'll find the sun
Along the shore i spy a ship as she sets out to see she spreads her sails and sniffs the breeze and slips away from me.
i watch her fading image shrink as she moves on and on until at last, she's but a speck and some one shouts 'she's gone'
Gone where? gone only from our sight and from our farewell cries, that ship will somewhere re-appear to other eager eyes.
Beyond the dim, horizon's rim resound the welcome drum's and while we're cryin' There she goes! There shouting 'Here she comes!
we're built to cruise , but for a while upon this trackless sea, until one day we sail away into infinity
She has gone across the river to the shore of evergreen and we long to see her dear face but the river run's between
someday,some time we shall see the face we love so well some day we'll clasp her little hand and never say farewell.
Heaven made an angel then sent her from above just to be my daughter and fill my world with love
all the joy i ever needed was captured in her smile she filled my life with sunshine if only for a while
although i never thought there'd be a time we'd have to part when heaven took my angel back he left a broken heart
God needed an angel in Heaven To stand at the Saviour’s feet; His choice must be the rarest A lily pure and sweet. He gazed upon the mighty throng Then stopped and picked the best, Our child was His chosen one With Jesus she’s at rest
On the day God took you I thought that I would die I wondered where the time went? I asked alot of whys?? With people all around me I felt alone inside From all their words of comfort, I couldn't seem to hide, I thought I might be dreaming That I'd wake and find you here, I thought "This can't be happening." As I wiped another tear. On the day that you were laid to rest My heart broke yet again, I wondered if the pain would end, But mostly, I wondered when?? It's hard to be without you, At times the days seem long, Sometimes I just sit crying, When there's really nothing wrong. I wish we'd had more time, Before your life was done. I hope your resting peacefully, My beautiful precious one
Im nearly at your resting place and just as i get near i swear i hear your voice cry out look-- im over here
ive brought some lovely flower's for you my lovely daughter i'll only be a minute now ill just go and get some water
as i walk across the grass and place the flowers in the pot i say to god, forgive me lord i miss her such a lot
they say that everything thats wished comes to those who wait i wish i could gather you in my arms and run out of that place
We often sit and think of her
When we are all alone,
For memory is the only friend,
That grief can call its own;
Like ivy on the withered oak,
When other things decay,
Our love for her will still be green
And never fade away
The moment that you passed our hearts we're split in two, one side filled with memories the other passed with you
no one knows the pain our smiles try to hide no one knows the many times we've broken down and cried
we want to tell you something so there is no doubt your'e so wonderful to think of but so hard to live without
In a place where innocence cant even be spelt, to stay as pure as the driven Yorkshire snow. An' compassion to make even the coldest heart melt, will stay with me wherever i go.
This cold hard land was Laura's garden, Laura's laughter brought the sunshine to this place. Looks like the concrete playgound's fallen' silent, just like me it longs to see her pretty face.
My love for little Laura is far deeper than deep space, an' it may seem hard to comprehend. For souls who are cold find it hard to embrace, Daddies girls an'Dad's are the very best of friends.
I'll remember every single smile you did, your steadfast loyalty too. An' i'll blow you a kiss as big as this, an' i'll send it little Laura to you.
I'll sing you my song on and on, 'till i cant sing no more. I'll sing you my song on and on, just so you know the score. An' to let you people know, just as sure as rain is water. This world will be a darker place, without the bright bright light of little Laura.
tons 'n' tons 'n' tons of love always Laura Jean 'Porter'
all my love Daddy xxxxxxxxxxxx
Precious little child of mine you were my sweetest dream, when you took your journey home i wonder what was seen
i knew the angels whispered from the look upon your face i knew that you were going to a restful, peaceful place
and while my arms are empty my heart is filled with dreams of you at peace in heaven that place eyes have not seen
so rest my child in gods safe arms let angels kiss your face till then, i hold you in my heart till i meet you in that place.
The tide recedes, but leaves behind bright sea-shell's on the sand The sun goes down,but gentle warmth still lingers in the land, The music stops,and yet it echoes on in sweet refrains For every joy that passes something beautiful remains.
She's a little bit of sunshine, She's a smile to light our days, She will steal your heart and keep it with her warm endearing ways, She's our precious little daughter, With a sweetness from above she will fill our years with laughter and our lives with lots of love
Call heaven there's an Angel That's coming home today. Our hearts are sad and broken Because she couldn't stay.
Fluff up the clouds and lay her Gently in your care. Place the princess halo Softly in her hair.
We think about you always, We talk about you still, You have never been forgotten, And by us, you never will. We hold you close within our hearts, And there you will remain, To walk with us throughout our lives Until we meet again.
The little angels that Heaven holds Were beckoned by God's will As emptiness in our soul unfolds In our hearts we love them still.
Guardian angels hold her tight As the angel choir sings. watching over her through the night Enveloped in their wings.
She may be in the house of the Lord But our child she'll always be. For still there is the family cord And it's there for eternity.
The day will come when you and I Will walk on Heaven's hill. Together we'll be hand in hand Loving each other still.
I have not turned my back on you, so there is no need to cry. I'm watching you from heaven, just beyond the morning sky. I've seen you almost fall apart, when you could barely stand. I asked the Lord to comfort you, and watched him take your hand. He told me you are in more pain, then I could ever be. He wiped his eyes and swallowed hard, then gave your hand to me. Although you may not feel my touch, or see me by your side. I've whispered that I love you, while I wiped each tear you cried. So please try not to ache for me, we'll meet again one day, beyond the dark and stormy sky, a Rainbow lights the way.